The Immobility of Me

It's funny how in the face of everything else, my inability to walk properly is causing me the most frustration.

It is the last straw really. I'm still walking with a cane. I even experience pain sitting down. I finally caved and sought out a second opinion. I'm in the middle of getting test results. I am also awaiting others to be conducted. I think it's hilarious that due to the congestion and wait times for medical tests in Ontario, that I may actually heal before the test date. Let's hope. In the meantime, I've rediscovered the joys of pain killers.

Being immobile is difficult for most people, but for me, it's like utter torture. I've always been a hyperactive person. I cannot stay still. I've been likened to a hummingbird on speed. So as of late, my inertia has caused my demeanor to also come to a stand still. Can you blame me if I'm a little blue? People at work always stop me and ask what's wrong. Frankly, because I haven't any official response from my doctors and therapists, I do not know what to tell them. I find that most people's reactions have been of the mocking and chiding variety. Honestly, I hate it. I'm really upset right now, and people seem to think that my situation is very funny. I guess no one realizes just how much pain I'm experiencing, both physically and mentally.

Another side effect of my physical ailment is that I cannot even think of anything interesting to write about other than my sadness and the interesting things I've noticed about my ceiling while lying in bed in pain. Thoughts like: "Why are stucco ceilings the norm in most cookie-cutter homes in suburbia?" It reminds me why I would always lose my helium balloons as a kid the moment I got home and released them. Blahm! Then a shower of rubber shrapnel.

I blame it on the drugs.

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By the by. I am playing with my new Pocket PC for free right now. My "contact" is letting me have it on a trial basis until I decide to keep it for good. All that without any cash down or obligation! I love "try before you buy" policies.